| in only 5 months she already forgotten, in just 5 months she already moved on, y did this happen, wat was wrong, y didnt it work, y did all this have to happen, i feel like i got striped of everything losing not only the person i care for the most but also my friend, she never thought this was a very big deal, i bet. in those 5 months all i did was miss her, all i did was think about her, waiting for her, and i kept loving her no matter wat she did, when i thought it was time to make up i was ignored, and pushed aside. It was one of the most painful things to feel, wanting to be with someone and finding out u arent even considered a person to them, just a piece of trash they left behind. for some reason i just kept on trying, trying to see if it will work even though i already know its a lost cause, y would i try so hard u say? its cuz i love her, its cause i care for her, and maybe one day she'll notice me again and we can go back to when we were happy. but i recently noticed tat she is happy she dont need me no more, but i cant take the pain no more it just hurts to much. y does my heart hurt so much, when i wanted to forget it just comes back, when i try to not think about her she appears, i miss those days when we would jsut spend the time together, it was the most happiest moments in my life, i dunno y i miss her so much, all it does is bring me more pain, sometiems i think if this pain is worth having.... would i trade this pain for random happyness, i duno, all i know is that the pain is the only thing i have left tat binds me to her, so i wish she would notice me again, and for that pain to go away when we are finally together but tat is probably never gonna happen. when my heart finaly fills with to much pain to bear im just gonna forget, forget the good times with her and the bad, forget and wait for my heart to heal. wait till the heart gets reborn again and start from scratch, but would i be able to forget, would i be able to forget tat angelic smile, the way she laughs, the way she used to look into my eyes, i'll wait until tat time comes to tell. |
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| wow im on xanga cool!! well i havent been on much cuz i had a lot of problems happening and cuz i have myspace haha!! wellz hope to see u chan soon im hoping to visit like at the end of summer so peace out yo |
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| mwahah i got my first tat!! laters for pics to tired now to post
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| HAPPY THANKSGIVING PEOPLES!!
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